Kristina, new T

My family doctor is a sweet person, very softspoken and gentle, a great person overall but a crappy doctor - at least where ED's are concerned. It's tough for me to think about switching family doctors because I've seen him since I was 8 or 9 so there is a lot of "history" between us. Maybe I cling to the past too much and maybe I'm too loyal a person... Anyways, I am supposed to see him weekly for medical monitoring but I haven't been because when I'm there all we do is chat about how things are going. He doesn't do blood pressure checks or weight or any of that stuff you'd expect. When I was getting all those leg and foot cramps - terrible paralyzing cramps - early this year, he gave me Potassium supplements when really according to the EDU doctor I see as well, I should be taking Magnesium supplements for that. Since I started on the Mg supplements things have gotten much better.

I have started seeing a new therapist as of yesterday (in addition to the one I've seen for 8 years, when I was in Children's Hospital). The only reason is because Barbara (old T) is going away for a month or so and the ED group is on a break until October so I feel like I'm at loose ends. I need my appointments in order to keep life going. Without these set points in time I would feel like I was floating and floundering. I need my identity as a "sick person" and in some ways the constant appointments are becoming a part of my routine life which is probably not very healthy for my head. The new T, Kristina, thinks that I will be in IP by August but I don't think so. I'm not THAT much of a medical priority! lol. I also hope that it's not that soon because I need more time to mentally prepare - and to lose more weight for insurance and as a buffer since I know in IP you have to gain weight.

I'm so excited about the movie coming out about baking called "Julie and Julia".

Julia Child (Meryl Streep) and Julie Powell (Amy Adams) are featured in writer-director Nora Ephron's adaptation of two bestselling memoirs: Powell's Julie & Julia and My Life in France, by Julia Child with Alex Prud'homme. Based on two true stories, Julie & Julia intertwines the lives of two women who, though separated by time and space, are both at loose ends...until they discover that with the right combination of passion, fearlessness and butter, anything is possible.

Given that I have a baking blog and am absolutely obsessed with food-related anything, this is the perfect movie for me. I only wish it were out in time for my birthday which is July 21! It's only coming out August 7th.

I just realized that I haven't been blogging about Zach, my son. The sad thing is that ever since I started working full time (July 2008) I don't see him very much.

Our weekly schedule:
M-F he is at daycare until 5:30 then I play with him a bit, give him dinner and a bath then it's bedtime. Sat-Sun he spends the morning with his dad then comes back in the afternoon for a nap. The only time we have is after the nap before bedtime.

He's growing so much and learning so much. Some things he says amaze me and I wonder, 'how do you know that!?" We're currently going through a bit of a tough time with discipline. At daycare when he's told not do something he does it more and more. I feel like I've done something wrong in raising him but I don't know what to do. I am very firm and I strongly believe in discipline. I will not and have not ever spoiled him and this adds to my confusion about where this behavior is coming from. I do the "time-out" thing with him and always follow through with consequences when I say I will. Here's the 'aww' factor... He always asks for a hug after he says sorry, which melts my heart every time. He is such an affectionate little boy. I don't know how one minute he can be on my last nerve and the next minute I want to smother him in kisses and hugs.