Even when my brain is telling me that logically I do not need to purge something as low calorie as salad or steamed veggies, the mere feeling of fullness/bloating/distended stomach makes me panic. I must be rid of it. I can't have it sitting in my stomach.
The fact that I purged steamed zucchini tonight signifies a new low. Either purging has gotten easy enough that I figure, "I might as well" or my brain is freaking out more than ever before and eliminating previously safe foods.
It's probably actually a combination of those 2 things.
There are no words to describe the calmness and stillness that follows a purge. My mind is able to rest. It's like a blanket of sedation is wrapped around my brain immediately post purge. Finally I can sleep.
