IP made me worse

It has been really hard to update.
I feel like shit all the time. I feel so out of sorts with my body, the extra few pounds i'm carrying around from the IP admission.
I have talked to another couple of girls from the program who are now discharged and we all feel the same way: we're now even MORE messed up mentally than before we went in.
I'm purging every single day now, back to eating 500 calories a day.
All I can say is thank god the edema hasn't come back.

I know I don't want to be like this but tx really fucked with my head. They make you gain weight without ANY psychological treatment to help you deal with it. I guess that is what acute care is, just to make you physically ok without any focus on the mental side. Thank god i still have my 2 OP therapists and 2 doctors who I see on alternating weeks. IP made me feel more hopeless than before.