Sunday, June 12, 2011
triggering people
I'm at the teddy bears picnic with my son and there's a super triggering woman here. Another mom. She is sooo skinny and she keeps looking at me, sneaking glances and probably sees me doing the same. I have this huge ache of jealousy in me and longing for that thinness. I want her body. I feel like a perv but I can't stop looking.
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I've been there too- when you see someone super skinny and you just can't stop staring...
ReplyDeletehang in there hun
xoxo
-Lisa
Did you stop and think that you were triggering her too?
ReplyDeleteAnonymous does have a good point. She might have been thinking the same thing you were.
ReplyDeleteKeep trying for *recovery* and forget about other people. There will always be people thinner than you and people heavier than you. What you want - I hope - is a healthy you who can enjoy your son, boyfriend and life in general!!!
{{{Hugs}}}
Angela
I relate! I know it's super creepy, but sometimes if I see someone I think is beautiful in a store or something, I get tempted to follow them around.
ReplyDeleteAs far as the eating, I hope you are doing better. The 7 hr purge fest sounds horrible. I am feeling a bit sick myself today from the continuous b/p. I can relate abotu the restricting and cutting, though for me, it's the b/p. If you ever need to talk through it, you know where to find me!